.. a year older.
POSTED AT 01:05 AM

shuhsien

Wow.

.. is it August 13 already?. Damn, how time flies. Why does it always feel as though that somebody had pressed the fast-forward button on life itself. Perhaps an accident? I guess not. Well, I haven't pondered much since the year started. But lo and behold, 2/3 of the year's already gone down into history.. and I'm a year older. Older, but unfortunately never wiser.

 But anyhow.. life has been good thus far. There were the odd ups-and-downs (mostly work-related unfortunately), but besides that.. what's there complain? Who ever said that Life was meant to be a bed of roses to start off with.

 .. and so, coming back to where I started of with. Well, I'm finally 24. Whoopie doo! Been working for almost 3 years, been happily attached for a year plus, still paying the installments for my car (the only damn depreciable asset that I have) and I've probably got a few pennies in my bank account which you could call savings. I guess it's getting to a point where I need to stop, take a step back and look at my options. Indeed, I'm not getting any younger. Looks like it's almost time to seek for greener pastures. Anybody want to offer me a job?

 Well, till then.. Happy Birthday, me...

Fickle minded
POSTED AT 01:59 AM

shuhsien

.. am still thinking whether to call it quits indifinitely on my bloggin' half or start anew with another Site. Did manage to type down a few lines with regards to my possible intention of starting a topic, but scrubbed it off a few moments later as alas I decided I was just too lazy. Man, am I one fickle minded creature.

Life's running on empty
POSTED AT 04:26 AM

shuhsien

.. emotions are still running high even though I'm running on empty. Got to catch a flight in 8 hours but I'm still feeling pretty frustrated. Read previous post. It was a rude awakening and as much as I appreciate the criticism, but I felt it was a little crude. I guess that's how it feels being at the end of a short-plank. Guess there's still much to learn and I've got to learn to pick myself up and carry on. Just that I do feel cheated when acknowledgement never comes due when you do well but criticism showers you when you make the slightest mistake. Sigh, that's life for you.

 Now..time for bed. Good luck and good riddance.

Currently feeling: tired

Frustrated
POSTED AT 02:02 AM

shuhsien

Life's not worth giving up for work especially if your bosses fails to appreciate all the effort that you've put in. Yes, it's not easy and somebody's got to do it.. but have you ever stop and wondered that nobody likes to be on a short leash. Go figure. Currently feeling: numb

Can't hack it.
POSTED AT 10:57 PM

shuhsien

.. back's against the wall, and everything around me seem to be caving in. The so-called work - life balance that we've been trying to achieve has started to take a nose dive after getting the indication that the deadline has been brought forward. And I'm starting to feel that I might not be able to hack it this time. It's frustrating not being in control and I feel all that I'm doing right now is just damage control. I need a break, isn't that too much to ask for?

Currently feeling: tired

..to know?
POSTED AT 12:40 AM

shuhsien

.. well I didn't have to, but I just thought I needed to know after all this while. I guess in hindsight, it would've been a totally different scenario if I'd picked up the phone or asked.. but it was a good thing I didn't. Would I have done otherwise if I'd knew back then? Maybe. Fate; it's funny how being a little off tangent can lead to many different outcomes.

Anyway, that's all to it. I'm much happier where I'm standing now. Period. Like I said, I just needed to know. Thanks for playing the game, it was good whilst it lasted.

Transition not missed.
POSTED AT 11:57 PM

shuhsien

.. with great power comes great responsibility. Where have I heard this before? Right, Spiderman. The transition the the next rung up on the corporate ladder albeit it being a single step was harder than expected. It felt as though I was thrown into the deep end of the pool. And boy was I not prepared for it. I guess it doesn't pay to weasel your way out of work as it will inadvertently bite you on your arse when you least expect it. Been there, done that.. now I'm starting to understand how it feels like being at the other end of the room. Play time's over. So, out with the tardiness and let's get the show on the road. As long as you're on my watch, there'll be no exceptions. Period.

.. to think?
POSTED AT 12:33 AM

shuhsien

.. a little frustrated and confused, but guess I shouldn't let that put me down. Sometimes it's better to give in instead of getting tangled in a mess. Got to learn when to take a step back and stomach the pain. It won't be smooth sailing every day, but with ever bumps along this journey.. it might just turn out alright after all. Guess I'm just thinking too much. A rest might be good.